There is a sign in front of a business near my house that says, "Banks will loan you money as soon as you can prove that you don't need it." Aint that the truth... Anyway, I am a 40 y/o father of 4, the youngest being the joy of my life; my 3 year old daughter. She is the reason I fought to live and survived a near-fatal accident, when she was just three weeks old. I suffered multiple life-long injuries, mainly to the left side of my body, and although you can't tell now by just looking at me, I deal with consistant pain on a daily basis. If it's not my neck; it's my hip, it it's not my chest; it's my stomach, if it's not my back; it's my collarbone, or shoulder blade, or any of those combinations... I almost forgot to mention my memory, which is ok as long as I write things down. As a result of that my wife is the one who goes out to work every day, while I stay home and watch the little one. First off, I have to say that she is a helluva woman, and I'm very lucky to have her. However, because she is the major bread winner, and the way her family is set up, it causes some problems in the house..... I have a big strong healthy 21 y/o step-son who acts like he's allergic to work. No,wait, I guess you'd have to be near something to catch it, huh?! He probably hasn't worked a full month in about two years time. Anyway, it's caused a situation where "The King" as I call him, feels that I can't say too much to him. He sleeps as late as he wants. Comes and goes basically as he wants. And did I mention, the last time he's worked ANYWHERE, was more than 12 months ago??? I think it's because his mother is the one with the full time gig, and he assumes that I'm not really doing anything to help out. Or at least that's part of his game. I guess it's an honorable thing when a mother stays home with children, but not so much when a man does it. I do go out on the weekends and make a few dollars by finding items requested for and selling them to seasonal workers. Now, there are just so many people doing that, and again, it's only a Saturday and Sunday thing. Plus the stress these guy's put you under is incredible, for the money you make. Back to Mr Ambition,... I do express myself about his lack of effort, but feel that I can't say too much to his mother because I want to keep the peace with her. I have to be fair and mention that she's not happy about it either, but it seems that she tolerates it a bit more..... As hard as she tries not to do it, at times she's made comments discounting the contributions that I make in the household, not overtly, but in so many words. There's other times she will come home and tell me about the different women at work, or in my daughters class who are shocked, or, impressed that I clean, do laundry, or dress my baby and fix her hair. I'm sure that I am not the only man who has experienced this, and not to sound negative, but, I think it's just a womans way. Gosh I've babbled on a bit long, and still haven't really expressed myself the way I wanted to, but, I needed to get that off my chest.... Anyway, I am a veteran of the U.S. Army, and completed my obligation just before Operation Desert Storm began. I consider myself to be a pretty disciplined and dependable person. My interests are music and clothing, mostly urban, which are the types of things I would find for the workers, and hopefully I can continue to work in one, or both of those areas. An idea I've had is some kind of business converting peoples music and video to discs. I have no idea about costs, interests, nothing, I hope that someone with some legitimate idea or offer will contact me soon, preferably with something on-line, where I can work and still tend to my household. The operative word is "legitimate," because I'm not into taking advantage of people, since I know all to well how it feels to be taken advantage of . I can't afford to pay any crazy fees, as I'm already trying unsuccessfully to keep my head above water where my bills are concerned. I was told by a government agency that most reputable establishments normally don't charge money anyway, to get started. It's like a terrible joke that it seems there are different companies out there that prey on folks like me who are in a bad situation. I've lost more than a couple dollars, especially trying to find the right urban clothing, or electronics wholesaler. I am not looking for hand-outs or for any one to feel sorry for me, just for the opportunity to be able to make a few dollars to take care of my family, and re-gain some of my dignity. Once that happens, I'll be able to show my wife how much I appreciate her, for everything she does. More importantly though I'll feel good about myself and have the confidence to talk to "His Highness" about getting himself together and setting some career goals. I am not trying to get rich quick, and don't mind paying my dues, but, scammers, please stay clear; I don't have any more dollars to donate, or throw away..... Thanks for taking the time to read this and I hope to hear from you soon. eanderson10@cogeco.ca or epal1022@hotmail.com